Very sad to be here but H says he is leaving

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Sweetbriar,
I am so sorry that you have to go through this while pregnant! I can only imagine how much harder that makes it.
You are right - I think we miss the idea of our H more than we miss the person they have been lately. I miss the old H that I married 18 years ago and the H I thought he was going to be. And that can be bittersweet - in some ways it is easier but then sometimes (like over the holiday weekend) it makes me kind of angry. I put in the hard time, but will not get the "payoff"of the life I thought we were both working towards. I even wrote a letter to H (in a notebook of letters that I write but will never send - good stress relief) that said how angry I was that I went through the tough years with very little money and of him building his business. I did more than my share of work raising kids and taking care of our house. And now he will learn from the mistakes he made in our M and move on to someone else. He will treat her better and not expect her to shovel snow or clean up all the dog poop in the back yard (from the dog I didn't even want!). I know I made my share of mistakes (although he won't even tell me what he thinks they are - hes just"not in love with me") but at least I am willing to work on them and let him benefit from that.
I am glad you are determined to still be the best person and best mom you can be - I know you can do it! Hang in there. I wonder for both of us if the upcoming holidays will have any affect on these guys.