Hi, Jen,
Stay strong. You WILL get through this. You seem to have strong FAITH.

Remember God has a plan for each of us BUT it may not be saving our M. If this is the case you HAVE TO BELIEVE there is A BETTER LIFE waiting for you in your future.

I'm not denying that what you are going through isn't painful-==it is! Let yourself grieve your M, but remember to take care of yourself in the process. You are important and deserve to be happy. It is soooo hard to let go. I haven't & neither have most of us here.

Give yourself the gift of time. Do the work to improve yourself 180s) and GAL whenever and however can you. It is important you surround yourself w people who can support you. Come here often and vent/journal.

(((BIG HUGS)))

M- 18 T-21
S-14,11 & 10
BD 6-18-2012 (OW-EA)
H moved out 11-3-2012
10-5-13 Me- I want a divorce. I want to move on w my life.
11-25-13 Jointly filed.