Just journaling a bit. No contact for a couple of days now. 2 I think. Which is good. H hasn't even tried texting S14. I know this because he and I switched phones (his asking)
Last night something made me kinda sad. D12 is in the marching band at school. There is a holiday parade on this Sat. I will be working and cannot take her. I had said we could contact H and see if he will take her if she likes. She responded with "No. I don't want him to know. I don't want to have to worry about my routine and look up and Dad or her be standing there."
That's pretty telling. We decided that we would ask H Fand SM to take her. Which I did. We also asked they not tell H because D12 simply didn't want him there.
I guess at this point they are starting to really realize where the drama is coming from. I think where I kept reacting for so long it made it difficult and in some ways I think they blamed me. Of course, there are so many feelings for them I expect them to blame me and take it out on me. I'm the only one here for them to take it out on. So it is what it is I guess.
Still rolling along. I'm tired today. I guess from all the working. I'm not much used to any sort of manual type labor anymore. Thank Goodness this job is just through the holidays!
