Hi good folks, I remember someone posting on here, about missing his ex W, saying the hardest part to come to terms with, was with what he thought/believed he had had, and not what relationship he had actually had, with hindsight of course.

You see ever since I first fell in love with Liz (late July early Aug 76). I soon began to feel that she would always be there for me. And that we would only get separated by death and that being in old age.

I have made tremendous improvements within myself over these past years. But still lots of memories have come back to me, which then I look back on, they don’t usually start about Liz but she and what has happened in my life since these events sometime does.

Most of my life I’ve worked outside, So I visit lots of places that I’ve got loads of memories of. For instance up until 6 ½ years ago I had hardly ever been thru the village BH. And then I found myself going to BH nearly weekly. And the same thoughts/memories kept coming back from mainly 1976 and the people who were with me/in my life at the time. So when I was actually working for customers at this place, I would look over the fences and see the fields me and Ifor had harvested. He had lost his driving licence for the second time (in 76), so I had to drive the tractor and trailer on the roads a long way cos this farm we were at, is a fair distance from Ifor’s farm. Also the next village down the road from BH is B. And I can remember driving a digger to an address just outside the village late 75 early 76. And all the people and happenings (from the time) nearly always came flooding back.

So perhaps what I miss about Liz the most is maybe what I thought I had, and also missing that somebody who would always be there for me type of thing.

Do any of you feel kinda like the same?
These memories of what I was doing in my life back then and how I felt at the time are still strong.

Love
Delboy

P.S. There was standing room only at the large church for Ifor’s funeral (Oct 03) and at the refreshments/ wake at the town hall there was over 300 people in attendance. I went to the church service but I couldn’t face going to the town hall because I had just found out about Nic (11 days earlier). Ifor was some character, in 1976 I said what do you fancy for the Grand National, he said ‘Rag Trade’, I said “put me a fiver (£5) £2.50 each way, on would you”, “yes” he said, I gave him the money but he didn’t put my bet on, but he did pay me out about £50. And he said “I didn’t need to put your bet on because I put a hugh amount of money on him at antepost.” price (probably at 33-1).

For the record, Rag Trade only just managed to beat the greatest/best racehorse (steeple chaser) of all time ‘RED RUM’. This is the toughest horserace in the world, Rummy won it in 73,74 and 77. You can rest assured that no horse will ever beat his record! (I’m more than willing to stake my life on it).
My counsellor, (now ex) lives right by the late trainer’s son’s new yard, who in his own right won the national with Ballabriggs (2011). One of my (former) customer’s grandson is the yards blacksmith.
See how my mind works it tries to link everything together!!!!!