Thanks, Leo. I guess the downside to spending time is I feel like she's taking advantage of me. She can have the family life when she wants it and run to the bars when she doesn't.

She sent a text after work indicating she was going out for a quick drink and would be home soon. Well, she missed dinner and seeing S again. She's still not home and hasn't said anything further to me.

I think I know why I told feel too anxious when she's out at the bars, possibly with OM. It's because I get more anxious when I know she's coming home. Because I don't want to have any R talks out of fear of what she'll say.
When she stays out I avoid those talks and get time to myself. Maybe this is crazy.. Or unhealthy. I'm not sure. I just know that tonight I dot want to talk. I'm tired.


M34 W35
S5 S2
T10 M6
on/off over the years including her A
Recently-
Nov 2015 bomb
Nov 2015-Feb 2016 Reconciling
Feb bomb
March-April Reconciling
May - bomb
Mid-May I tell her I'm done