Thanks, Leo. I guess the downside to spending time is I feel like she's taking advantage of me. She can have the family life when she wants it and run to the bars when she doesn't.
She sent a text after work indicating she was going out for a quick drink and would be home soon. Well, she missed dinner and seeing S again. She's still not home and hasn't said anything further to me.
I think I know why I told feel too anxious when she's out at the bars, possibly with OM. It's because I get more anxious when I know she's coming home. Because I don't want to have any R talks out of fear of what she'll say. When she stays out I avoid those talks and get time to myself. Maybe this is crazy.. Or unhealthy. I'm not sure. I just know that tonight I dot want to talk. I'm tired.
M34 W35 S5 S2 T10 M6 on/off over the years including her A Recently- Nov 2015 bomb Nov 2015-Feb 2016 Reconciling Feb bomb March-April Reconciling May - bomb Mid-May I tell her I'm done