Confused? I can imagine smile
Her thoughts are what they are - at the moment she shares them with you. I can see how hard that is. I've lived it for years now.

Here's the thing. You have to focus on you and making you OK. Not with the situation, but in general. She may not come back, but she doesn't seem to want to move on either. Nobody knows why but her.

Until you can detach and make yourself OK, you'll spin like that.

Focus on you to the exclusion of everything else as much as you can. She has her own things to work on and she'll have to do them. Give her the space to do that. Kindly. Lovingly. For both of you.

Peace,
AJ


"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK
Put the glass down...
"Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world
Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."