Wife lost in the MLC-We are now separated

[sam4nh]

Thanks I appreciate everyone’s input. I guess my struggle now is that my W seems to have started to cut me out. We have very limited communications. She now only texts me and this is very seldom. When she does the texts are very business-like. Maybe that's because I'm being to business-like and not showing much emotion??

We did have lunch and saw a movie on Friday. I have to say I was not in a good mood and it probably showed. I was not able to do the "as if" and "everything is fine" rules and she pointed out that I seemed very distant. Maybe because she seemed to be very “happy” and I’m NOT.

I felt like lying down and crying myself to sleep. I hate this process so much. I feel lost, betrayed, unloved and unsupported.

We have not talked about our relationship since before we went to Turkey. She said a lot of things that I'm not sure I believe, since they were something like she has some hope for our relationship. Her counselor told her not to talk to me about anything and let me focus on healing from my mom’s passing. I know I shouldn’t bring up our relationship or questions, but I really have no idea what she is thinking or where we stand. She did say something Friday about it was hard making decisions during the holidays. I did not validate this since I was not completely sure of what to say. She was asking me what my plans are for Christmas and I explained that I wanted to spend time with my dad.

What the heck do I do? I’m still reading DR/DB and feel that there is a lot of good information, but at the same time I want my W back. Yeah I get it, that it won’t be the same and I can accept this, but does it have to be so stinkin’ hard on my nerves?

Thanks!