Only 1 more day....The Inlaws are leaving and W is signing the Lease.
I know i should feel worse and I am wondering if I am that much detached? Or I am in Denial still? Or maybe because i know the DB, 180 and GAL are going to be positive for my R.
I know we shouldn't talk about the OM but I wonder what kind of person is willing to help destory a marriage or encourage it to happen. I don't know what they talk about but i do know this OM is single (never been married, no long term relationships). I wonder what kind of human being is capable of doing this. Ya i know the easy answer is selfish bastard, scum, etc. Makes me feel i should be doing something but I know i will just make it worse.
I still have a final question for myself. I still haven't discussed how exactly i want to handle the kids. Originally i didn't want her to visit M-F because it didn't seem stable for the kids (where she comes home from work, cooks, plays and then leaves at night). I thought that would be confusing for the kids. I figure, if we are truly going to be divorced, this scenerio wouldn't happen. I want her to feel, what it will be like with me going dark and having 50/50 custody of the kids. Right now, her moving out is just basically sleeping in a different room at night.
As for my W current mood about our R. All i can say is my W is soooo confused by what love is. Besides the physical signs of affection, she treats me with kindness. Buying me stuff i need, getting my food during dinner/lunch, asking me to go out or going out when i ask her, letting me physically give her massages(testing the waters) and being receiptive of my kindness (she thanks me, which she rarely did). In the past, she couldn't trust me with 3 kids, but now she is totally comfortable with me taking care of the 3 kids.
I could accept this R as a work in progress, it actually feels good. She mentioned she hasn't been this happy in a long time. Of course, she could mean her decision to move out.
What I wouldn't pay for a mind reading machine or a mind De-Fog machine
