My friends, The thing on self-righteousness is right on. I'm guilty of it. But a wise man knows when he should be humble and accept correction. I will do my best to get rid of it. And selfishness too. Guilty big time.
As for my attitude towards W, I said I was sorry, I have written letters asking for forgiveness for very precise things, I showed remorse and a change in my attitude. But that's probably not enough I suppose.
Today was my "visit" day, and the library was closing doors, and I proposed we went somewhere else, and W says : "there's only half hour left anyway". Ouch, I clearly feel she doesn't enjoy spending time with me. (Needless to say, she came with her mum to supervise).
All of this is about to change. She's in for a surprise tomorrow, when they receive the counter petition from my lawyer asking for my son every other week. I don't mean it in a malign way. It's just that she really is convinced she has the right to have our son all for herself! I know this sounds crazy, and you probably think I am exaggerating, but she does think she's doing my a favour by granting me two visits a week!
This coming week, I really have to focus on responding gently and calmly. No anger, no bitterness, just a husband who loves his child. W will be furious, mad and sore angry. I'm NOT trying to force respect on anyone, but I think that I gave several opportunities for her to make a step in my direction, and she has to realize that her own choices lead to the explosion of our family. So far, she didn't feel ANY of the consequences of her choice to separate.
I am not the victim, but nobody was at the airport when I arrived in the country, I slept in a youth hostel while looking for a place to rent, walked miles by foot to sort my several documents and buy food, English is not my language and I struggled, while she had a house, a car, friends and family here.
W stopped attending church (of course, living in sin doesn't go well together), she rarely smiles, she changed lots. She's not the cheerful girl I knew back in France. What happened?
Me:34 ; W:28 Son: almost 2. Married : 14 March 2009 DBomb : 18 June 2012 Separated since Jan 2012 (different countries) Same country and city since July 2012
