I would stick with the card. But, I'm no veteran here by any stretch of the imagination! Gather more opinions than mine.
I've prayed a lot through all of this. If I feel a burning desire and it seems to come from a Higher Power, then I usually follow suit. I guess what scares me some lately--much like what you describe--is a lack of feeling. I don't feel much of a drive to do anything where he is concerned. I'm tired of his problems and how his problems have impacted my life. And, I'm REALLY tired of how he still can't seem to understand that only HE is responsible for these problems--I'll take my part for the problems in the marriage, but I'm sick and tired of being blamed for his unhappiness.
Be good to YOURSELF on the anniversary.
Heather
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson