I can relate to some of what you posted. Lately, I've felt like so much time and space and insanity and the OW--all of it-- for nearly a year and now there's this huge divide between myself and H. Not sure it's even realistic we could find our way to each other again. How do you keep the faith when someone has been out of your life for a year? Weird.
Sorry, lacking faith tonight--at least faith in my marriage or maybe just in my husband.
Trying to take the grown-up path myself. H has given me many opportunities lately to act the teenager--but I've resisted. Not easy!! It helps to have an 18-yr-old daughter who shows me daily what adolescent behavior looks like. And, sometimes the similarities between her attitude and H's are mind-boggling.
My two cents...Do what you need to do on Friday to get through the day. Put yourself first and give your heart a little love and nurturing. You definitely deserve celebrating how you've honored your vows despite some huge resistance.
Heather
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
