This Parrot is No More, Ceased to B, a Late Parrot

[LoisB]

Thanks Caigy, We survived the first Thanksgiving! Maybe this is how the Pilgrims felt!

Update.

Haven't heard anything from H since Friday when he was obviously back into Blame Mode. Prob went back to OW and his life of drugs, sex and rock-n-roll.

Heard from a girlfriend today that a mutual friend ran into H at a store on Friday. A very gossipy friend, I might add. Anyway. I'm sure H was nervous because the whole town knows about his behavior now--and, in solid MLC fashion he took the time to elaborate on all the ways I had let him down as a wife. Went right back into... "I just couldn't take it any longer, she never worked and blah, blah, blah..." Sweet. Angry at me because HE is storing a marital asset at the OW's house. I was tempted to text or call and make it known I wasn't happy about his BS--but didn't. He has to live with, yet another cowardly and tacky lapse in judgement--a week after I offered him a place to stay when he was sick. A$$hole.

Still hurt, but managed to get through the day. I continue to feel like this guy just ain't worth it. Every day, a little more of my faith in him melts away. I was also reminded today of a party he and OW went to around the corner from our house. Another mutual friend stood and looked at H and OW and couldn't figure out if she was a trashier me--until someone said "NO, that's not Heather." Not a pleasant memory, especially combined with his heartfelt words at the store on Friday. All I could think of was...they must have been acting very much the couple for this guy (not the sharpest tool in the shed) to see they were a couple. Makes me ill.

Today, I feel like this guy has drained so much from my life and the life of our kids. Part of me wishes he had a lot of money, so I could take it all.

Had so much faith in him--and now--who is this man? How can he behave with such cruelty? I may be due to read some more MLC info--before I get too stuck in hating him again.

Went to my SIL's house today to visit my nieces. I hadn't seen her youngest since she was born in March. SIL was really nice and called me Aunt Heather right off the bat which made me feel relaxed. My older niece gave me a huge hug right when I walked in... Didn't bring up H. No one asked questions. It was a nice visit.

Overall, the weekend was a nice weekend. Loneliness and sadness were kept to a minimum. Seems like H is back in Replay-Land so I'm just keeping my distance this week--get back to work with my students tomorrow. I think I may actually feel somewhat recharged and ready!

Good Thoughts and Prayers to All

Heather