Sandi2, Thank you for direct and clear response. I am both willing and wanting to do this work. I was not happy with the marriage as it was. I was just hoping it would last long enough for me to make the money to provide my family with some security, so I could be the hero husband and then work on the marriage. Pathetic, I know. Now.
Honestly, since she kicked me out, and I hit what is truly my rock-bottom, I've experienced a tremendous relief. Obviously, I've failed at the most important thing in my life. I am not afraid of failing. I no longer need every single thing in my life. I want more than anything to be with my wife. I truly love her. And I think under her anger and hurt she loves me too.
In short, I'm loving the personal changes this terrible ordeal has created in me. I want to keep going and growing and hope you will all take me under your wing and provide the guidance to help me set things right.
