Helped my Friend (W), pack today. Probably shouldn't help but at the same time felt it was good to help as part of my healing process.
Afterwards, she thanked me. She told me, it must be tough to help her.....wanted to say no $$#%@a. But told her, your welcome.
As we were driving to visit a friend who just had a baby, I thought about our children, when they where born. I tested up, couldn't let my Friend know. For 10 minutes, remained silence and avoided looking or talking. I didn't care if she heard me, but for that brief minute, I couldn't hold it in.
Only 2 days till she signs the lease...
The other day, she told me, she could stop talking to me to make it easier for me.....WAS... I swear, no clue, no matter what they did or try to do, our heart was damaged. We LBS will have great pain regardless if they avoid us or don't...
I told her, do what you need to do and stop worrying about me.
I started to mentally take her pity as encouragement to DB and GAL harder. I am going to make someone happy in the future, I can promise myself that...
Bring on Christmas and New Years!!!! May as well deal with all these holidays sooner than later.
I been reading many positive threads about going dark...figure I done enough in the last month to show her a taste of the new me. When I go dark, she will need a spotlight to find me
