Thanks for the birthday wishes. Your support means more than you'll ever know. Strangers who have become very comforting to me are what you are. I couldn't be more blessed to have found you.
Since I've woke up, all I have thought about is the boxes I packed up yesterday. I will probably go down and unpack some of them. I was very emotional when I packed them. I have kept every letter and card my H has sent/given to me for the past 28 years. I have letters from when we were in high school and college. Those letters are in the boxes. Today I am 44 and those days seem so distant. Just thinking about all the things my boyfriend/fiancé/husband said in those letters, reduces me to tears. Where is that man that loved me so much and always made me feel so special on my birthday?
My girls are still asleep. My oldest has to go back to college today. We are both upset about it. I am sitting in my bed eating pop tarts, drinking chocolate milk and taking antidepressants. What a pathetic sight of a 44 year old woman.
