thanks so much for that. What you had to say gives me more clarity in the feelings Im experiencing at this point and time with XH. I guess it kinda suprised me how quickly I was just "done" last week. In the past I've felt "done' before but what I really was feeling was frustration and anger. Though those emotions are completly called for, I now feel that when you're emotions still run, even though there has been some detatchment started, you truly aren't "done". At least I now know I wasn't. Hindsight is such a wonderful teacher for me.
But now, my "done" consists more of total acceptance of the insanity of this situation. Im no longer angry, frustrated, or sad, pining or missing what was when it was so much better years ago. I no longer desire to apologize to him or bring closure to this with him. I no longer wish to even try and keep a friendly connection for the kids sake, nor do I even wish to fight with him or try to make any point possible unless very necessary.
I am just done.
Yes that "hit" of happiness, is what XH toodles around looking for. He has for years now that I think about it.
In a way I think I have too, and I just realized it. Hence me feeling confused about dating and getting involved in a new relationship. I do believe I was starting to think if I found a new person that all my problems would just go away!
Well hello Kimmerz!!!! LOL....
Aside from issues of XH, MLC and all, I acknowledge Im not fullfilled in my personal life.
I don't know what my purpose is, but do think I feel my calling. Im just very confused and trying to sift through things in order to grab my purpose with both hands and run with it. Very had to do that when you have the responsibility of everything on your shoulders. Finding time to "find me" is hard!
