We didn’t have them over so my mom shoved in my face about her friends they went to, they are perfect according to her. My mom said the day before that her wish for me is to get a D. I don’t need to hear her lack of understanding disappointment.
hiya - let that flow over you (if possible) it's awful to not have a motehr's support or understanding- some mothers just aren't that type. IT'S AKNACK and they don't have it.
my mom manages to have everyone in family hating each other alot of the time with her "stories" either of how great or how awful everyone is - in general- to her- about edch other- i don't even know. i can't even imagine she kn ows the havoc she wreaks - just says whatever pops into her head and never a thought about how it's received.
she's got the ole "it's your own fault" thing going on in life - across the board. she personally has not one flaw- but HER CHILDREN are allll responsible for their own troubles. I guess that maybe she is so fearful of being asked to be responsible to "help" anyone- that she hurrys up to tell you it's your own problem. what an awful way to make people feel- nevertheless- ... good ole mom
i am happy to report aftermany years of really hurt feelings and making me cry- now i expect the worst and am not surprised so much anymore - no matter what she says. good luck and sadly- your heart will scab up a bit with her in the end- but it will be a good thing probably. try to not let her make you feel bad. SHE PROBABLY CANNOT UNDERSTAND - much like my mom.
your H and the homeless - it's strange isn't it? all that compassion for others - wtf about you guys?
also- the stages thing- is that encouraging or wierd too? i'm not seeing distinct stages here. i always thought i was a gal with compassion- can it be tht i am soooo immersed in this betray and my own junk that i am totally unable tos ee what is going on here w/ h? or is nothign going on?
how do you feel about hinm apologizing gfor the hurt. i'd say it's something- at least an acknowledgement of the pain he's caused - i've never heard a word - don't think i am likely to ever hear an apology. it's funny how something soooo small - seems soo big to a guy like me, never hearing one single word of "reality" conversation.
I'd faint if this man ever said something like he's confused or "finding his way" or ANYTHING at all realistic about him and his confusion and the havoc he wreaks in my life/heart.
oh well- does it change at all how you feel? or is it "more of teh same"?
I'd also be very glad to here my h say he hated ow - even soem of the times. i have no cluein a million years what he feels. i saw what he said to her a yr ago- i still want to croak when i think of it- i stop myself. he finds it so easy to slather "love" around in e-mails and texts- cannot utter the words to me in person- i'm sure now dowsn't even want to- nevertheless - i'd take any kind of honest exchange of information-ideas from him. we go along on such a stupid and superficial level- oh well
continuing to "cure" here- harden up- get (i hope)m ore distant, etc.
he probably comes in any minute.
GLAD TO HEAR YOU feeling good and staying on your course. YOU ARE SOOOOO RITE- ABOUT EVERY DAY TO LEARN AND GET THRU
