I am ready to give up. I packed up all his clothes today and put them in the garage. I texted him and told him when he could come and pick up the boxes. He responded that I was being dramatic and did I really think this was good for myself or the girls. I told him he was the one creating all the drama in our lives. I said that this is reality and he wanted it this way...for us to be over.
Yes, I did everything wrong. But, I don't know if I care anymore. The person I fell in love with and had two Ds with is not the person who is making my life miserable. I love him. I always will. But, in my head, I am hearing what he said to me in Sept ILYBINILWY and I'm beginning to feel the same way. This is so confusing for me because I never wanted my marriage to end. I wanted to spend the rest of my life with my H.
I'm exhausted. I just don't feel like I have what it takes to ever turn all of this around, no matter how much I want it. I feel like I have made enough mistakes trying to get him to come back to me, that its hopeless. He is a very stubborn man and has his mind made up. Plus, I don't stand a chance if the OW is still in the picture. It seems like she may be,but I truly don't know. I did accuse him of it though, another mistake....I know.
I feel like I have aged at least ten years in the past four months. I'm tired and I feel beat when it comes to having my marriage and my husband back.
