MLC, affair, internet pictures, we're a mess

[cantslowdown]

When I say October 1st above that's 2012. A year after she and him became "friends." We decorated our Christmas tree today. She tried hiding away our ornaments that marked our original first married Christmas together.

"I already went through those."
" What about these?" I said of the first Christmas ornaments. Since she wouldn't out and say she did not want to put up the marriage ornaments I went ahead and put them on the tree. She also got pissy about me putting my childhood ornaments on he tree (she tried setting them aside in another box) even though hers were going up. I sure as hell put mine up too. With a smile and jimming of a Christmas tune. I have a feeling I am in for a rough month. This is my favorite time of year and i don't think she wants me to take pleasure in it.

As i wrote that last sentence i realized it is probably mind reading like you were talKing about earlier. How do you stop doing that? I obviously do it. i can't be happy waiting for what is the next "crisis" but I don't want to be too vulnerable and unprepared where I do something stupid like fall into the reasoning or defending for the marriage.