Things have been okay. Had a minor set back, when I asked W to not talk to OM during times we are with the kids. I felt disrespected.
Now only 3 more days when she signs the lease for her new apartment. I feel okay but I am preparing myself to feel like crap that day. Hard to believe after 15 years...its come to this.
Funny thing is, things are really not that bad between us. We talk, laugh, play games, flirt a little...i still make her baths ever night.
But i understand she needs to do this to find her own answers in life...
Starting in 3 days, my clock starts..6 months for a positive sign, if not going dark and letting go the last piece of my heart that is holding on.
I love my W and hope some light will show her the way to happiness (with or without me).
