Just my last bit of journalling before I must really get down to business.
I have been trying to follow the DR principles as I set my goals and am monitoring the results. But I think sometimes what I am viewing as Progress, is not.
I thought when he agreed to make plans with me, that was progress. But then I think ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS.
And his actions lately are two general texts and no attempt at contacting me in the last week otherwise. Is there really progress? Maybe from the time of BD, but no forward movement that I can see now.
I deluded myself into believing that this visit was a good thing when really, as MRS. pointed out, he likely thinks he is just meeting with an old friend. I am finding it difficult to keep the realities of my situation in check. Because every time I remind myself of them, it feels like a punch in gut - a hard punch in the gut.
