No Aj, No expectations. Just realizations that's all. I've finally got his cycle down.
Well the birthday girl is actually getting two special days. Tuesday is her actual birthday. Im planning on taking cupcakes for her class that afternoon. Only a few gifts since money is trickling in off course in regards to child support and maybe her choice of dinner. Saturday is the slumber party with a couple of friends. My daughter wants a lot for her birthday. She's quite the wildfire. Where D13 is wise, kind, and caring beyond her years, D9's state of mind is" it;s all about me!" . She's a handful, but her heart is in the right place. I consistently have to keep her attitude and consideration of others in check. She loves to push boundaries!
Why again are the Holiday's tough for an MLCer? Based on his actions I figured he's just happy as can be. It's still very hard for me to grasp that in MLC land they act completely opposite in every way. Hence they appear as happy, but are miserable and show it by being impossible to deal with.
I think my feelings towards him have just up and died the last few days. It's almost like I don't even feel anything. All I do is just know. I know who he is NOW and what he's capable of. Im sad that my girls are now more involved in this and that they have to deal with this side of him, but I can't protect them from his mood swings, twisted perceptions, manipulations, and issues forever.
