Very sad to be here but H says he is leaving

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Made it through his birthday and Thanksgiving. H has actually been very pleasant to me the last few times we communicated (both in person and through texts. At first I had a glimmer of hope that maybe he missed me but I'm not allowing myself to think that - don't want more of a let down later. Then I start thinking he is just relieved to be away from me and maybe seeing me not being a total mess without him has relieved his guilt. I know I really just need to try not to think about him at all and keep the focus on me and my kids. He is coming to get them this afternoon for overnight (oldest D still hasn't even been to his apt so I hope it goes ok for her). And he told me he spent yesterday at a friends house "there were a lot of people there-it was fun" although he didn't sound really excited. I am a little sad now, thinking "really, you would really rather hang out with people you barely know than spend Thanksgiving with you family?" Trying not to dwell on that, I think I will go for a run and then I'm going to a basketball game with a friend tonight. Somewhere in there I will find my PMA and hold on to it! I am sure the Holidays are hard for all of us - hoping everyone is getting through ok.