Am I kidding myself.

[Hopefull2]

Mr B, T2,
Thanks for your input. I do get to feeling unsure of myself and i question/doubt myself too much at times. I truly believe I have my goals laid out and am doing what is working to get there. Before I moved out of state I wanted to reach the point that almost fealt like we were dating. I want her to look forward to me coming home, too miss me while I am away. I do not want her to feel the pressure of a relationship but the caring of a friend. And even though I agree that I do not want to be just "best friends" I believe that step is the first toward a relationship. I understand that my first priority was to protect my heart and my emotional stability. Thus the importance of detaching and going dim (limiting contact). While I am trying to build and nurture my friendship with my W I am constantly evaluating my emotional health and my detachment.

Update,
W and I had dinner together when I came back to town. Ended up havin some conversation about the letter. I kept it light and thanked her for opening up. She brings up how our daughter is just like her and is dealing with depression. She also admits she is just like her mom and mentions how her mom had a nervous breakdown and spent several months in a treatment facility. Interesting. I read into this that she is being honest with herself which I take as a very good sign.

Thanksgiving morning I bought W a Starbucks and stopped it by her place as she was preparing her meal. She was very appreciative and I god several warm hugs and even a slight hand hold before I left.