I know it's not as simple as that but it what you have to think about every day when you wake up. Let him go.

This place will help you with that, AlAnon will help you with that.

But don't give up things that are important to you in an attempt to keep a R going.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss