Here's what jumps out at me, he drinks a lot and sometimes he stays out late or doesn't come home at all.

Are these things still problems for you?

If so, how is getting back together going to work for either of you?

He's 38, what are the chances his behavior will change?

Have you ever thought of AlAnon? You might want to check into it.

Work on you, let him go.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss