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[AnotherStander]

I really wanted to get off as fast as I could. It worked, but I tell you what, I felt like a bag of poop after. This sadness came over me so heavy and strong. I cried and got angry that he's moving on. I want to move on too.

Sorry to hear you're going through this pain right now! I wish I could say something to make it go away, but only time will do that. It does get better, but it takes time. Some people more than others.

I have no plans for this holiday, I'm forcing myself to go volunteer at the shelter something that I ALWAYS wanted to do for Thanksgiving.

That's an awesome idea! I didn't have any plans either, my MIL invited me to her house along with W and our kids but frankly I could use less time around W. So I went for a nice long motorcycle ride, flew some R/C planes and had an impressive dinner of oatmeal and a banana, LOL! I actually enjoyed being alone though!

I started working out, cooking, watching tv and laughing. But that call really crushed all of my progress.

That's great GAL stuff. And you will hit setbacks now and then, just keep pushing forward. The setbacks will affect you less and less as time goes on.

I've also got a road trip planned to go to Austin on Friday afternoon - a last minute thing.

Ah, a fellow Texan I'm in the Dallas area. My brother lives near Austin.

I fought as hard as I could not to send an emotional reply...but don't you think that was a stupid question? I don't want a divorce, of course you upset me with this and yes you not wanting to fight for our marriage is wrong... typing that here feels better. But no, my reply was... No, not at all. I apologize if I have given you a reason to think so. Have a Happy Thanksgiving, send my love to your parents, and enjoy your trip.

You did great on your response! Good job on keeping emotions out of it.

I have wanted to cry out so much but I'm at work and I have got to hold it together. I don’t know how I am going to make it.

Go home, lock the bedroom door and let it all out. I did that a lot early on. Can't remember the last time I cried now though. Oh, actually I can. It was the first time my W got the kids on visitation. That was two months ago though. Now that I'm settled into the "new normal" I'm fine. You will be too. Don't fight the grief, let it out. Stick with your GAL activities. You'll feel better day by day.