Lost and looking for help

[BC39]

Thanks labug! Good questions.

What have you done to change you, to make you the better choice?

To name a few. (These are over simplified, but gives you the idea)

Expressing my appreciation. I used to just assume she knew I was thankful when she did things. Stupid, I know.
Tell her how good she looks and showing affection. In the past I didn't do this often enough.
Being nicer to her. Don't get me wrong, I've always been nice to her, but for a while leading up to our sitch I wasn't as nice to her as I was a friend or a stranger.
Taking her places and having fun. There were times I used to resist doing a lot of things. Now we go out a lot. We just went on a trip to the Caribbean for a week as well.
Being strong (in every sense of the word). I feel a part of me always has been, but my strength was miss guided in a lot of ways.
Taking better care of myself. Starting exercising and eating better. I've lost 25 lbs, I'm thin and feel great.

She gave you some pretty specific information, have you used that to work on you?
Yes, I believe I`ve addressed all of them.

Why to you think your anxiety and panic just went away?
Great question. The short answer is I don`t know. It could just be a coincidence as it did start getting better before our sitch. But there were times in the beginning of our sitch when I felt like I just didn`t have time to worry about my anxiety problem, I had more important things to worry about. I`m sure the exercise has also helped.