i'm simply terrified. i can't sleep without dreaming about them, all the time, everywhere and it constantly wakes me up in tears. my day mostly consists of crying or doing things to take my mind off of it so i don't spend day after day in a dark room sobbing.
Christmas. My son is being showered with presents, more than ever... so much so that mine will be moved to his birthday in a week. Nothing to be said so i say nothing. i miss them so much. i... love them. i hope they have a good life.
