Introspection: why do I feel apprehensive? I don't want to address in my mind the fact that she is spending holiday w/OM. The hurt has been/is being done. Why is this more? Because it is a special day we always spend w/extended family? Because my lizard brain tells me she could go visit OM's family? (pretty sure he's from out of town) or that she could bring him to her family's dinner? (even now I think more highly of her than that, the thought pops up, nonetheless)
Focusing on me and my fears and pain is not helpful. Praying the prayer I posted does help so I'll be doing that.
Me 46 W 43 S 21 D 18 S 17 M 22 yrs Discovered OM 9/10/12 W moved to sister's 9/15/12 W moved to OM 9/27/12 Tried to DB until 7/13 W filed 10/7/13. Did not serve. I counter filed 12/2/13.
