You just received some fantastic insight and advice from the last 2 posters. What you need to do is identify your goal(s). Without a focus, you will continue to drift. Take your time, do the reasearch, look for patterns (yours), keep the issues to you only don't concern yourself with others as you have no control over them.
Be your own solution detective, prioritize things you can identify and then execute a plan to address them. Don't over whelm yourself by working on too many things at the same time. Actually, post some of them here and let the DBrs give some input. There are very insightful people here.
Get to work on identifying the issues, then the solutions and the rest will follow. Slow and steady wins this leg of the marathon.
