I just want to let you know i was thinking of you today Grateful.
I played Frisbee with my S this morning and had the best smile on my face i have felt in a long time, prior to my W coming to pick him up for the afternoon.
Now, i have to keep busy and stay out of my own head, which is doing better today than usual.
Ed
Thanks for the post. I have to say that I admire you. Your stand is amazing. In the past few months, I have wanted to quit so bad. What is your secret to it all? I know that you have concentrated on GAL, but what else have you done?
Don't admire me for what I have done. My life in nearly every other aspect is a complete shambles.
But, every time I felt like my energizer battery was running on empty, I just reminded myself of what was my original purpose and then I started from the top again, giving 100% of my efforts with optimism and keeping hope alive.
Obviously as it seems now, I have deluded myself for way too long, so my GAL is even harder to see with the challenge of having my son with me nearly 100% of the time and not having any spare funds to do some things with, so I am always seeking cheap and free things to do, which can even be going for a walk with my dog.
Ed
Me, 55 W, 36 T, 10 yrs S-9 M, 8 yrs 1st D-Day, 9-27-2009, With 1st bf, ea/pa 2nd D-Day, 12-5-2009, With her best friends bf, ea/pa W, AA relapse early 2009-Current W moved out 2-16-2012 New OM 5-2012