I sooo much appreciate your post to me. You basically put into words the thoughts I have but can't seem to say them. It's hard for me to admit that he doesn't love me. It's hard to admit that this has been an abusive M and that I allowed it. I will be starting counseling the first week in December and I have been reading self help books. I know all this stuff I just can't seem to practice it.
I went back and read all the old threads of mine I could find also and I noticed the patterns. He has said the same nasty words to me and the same glorious words about the ow. It opened my eyes. I tell myself he has issues that no woman can heal but then it seems this new ow is his magic ticket to becoming the man he is suppose to be.
I need to stop torturing myself with this. How can someone who has been this way with every woman in his life suddenly change after 3 months? But he apparently has. Smack I needed a 2x4 for that last thought
I am going to retread your post over and over till I get it.
Thanks for the thoughtfulness you put into it
Lisa
Me:37 H:38 6 kids first bomb 8/05 (ow involved) piecing 7/06 second bomb 3/07 ow involved wash rinse repeat.... huge move to start over 2/11 more affairs H left for good 8/12
