kml, I hear you and yes, I do not want to minimize any pain my children will experience through this experience. But it is so hard to keep quiet for another 1-2 months. When I was writing above, I was interrupted, as my husband came in the room (we only have one computer at home). And a couple of times when we talked, I wanted to let him know I know, but didn't. It's hard trying to find outlets where I can be alone and yell, scream, shout, cry....and it's super hard when H talks about upcoming things, like wanting to take kids on vacation during February break, or doing the patio in the spring....helps to vent some frustration here....
Some of my 180s have been to clean out the attic, which has collected so much stuff through the years (H throws everything away and I'm a saver). Went through 2 bags this past weekend, and my son had a ball shredding old checks/statements (from 1995!!!) I'm making a goal to get to 2 bags/week in the attic and re-organize, donate, or throw stuff away. I've talked to the kids too, and they want to help me this weekend and look at some of their old toys and things, as they want to donate some of their things, and that feels really good. I started playing with my kids more too - usually they play Xbox games themselves (I'm not much a video game person), but we tried the sports this past week (bowling, football, darts, archery) and I really had fun (they did too!). H even came down and played a few times with us, so that was nice. I'd like to get outside more, but it's turned cold and I hate the cold weather, especially when there is no snow on the ground...once the snow comes, I'll take them sledding.
Still working on GAL. For the last several years, I've run the major fundraisers for my kids schools (we're talking 6+ years) - but I just told the parent groups that I will not be the chariperson for the fundraisers next year - I will help count $$ or orders, but I'm not organizing or will be in charge. That felt great to get this off my shoulders - time for others to step up to the plate. I've been thinking about taking up a ceramic class - I used to do this when I was in school, but haven't for a long time...
Time to go and get back to work. I probably won't get to write for a few days, but wishing all a very Happy Thanksgiving.
