Well I messed up big time I send a letter whining about how I feel, and tried over a week to repair what I wrote. But now the contact has ended. Only dealing what the sell of the house. I have been struggling to stop myself from contacting her and it really hurts me. I keep read websites with the answers that I want to read. You see she had got breast implants and I was against it, I was afraid she would leave after it was done, I even said that to her, what you going to that and then leave me, she said no it will just make me happier, I can tell you that it did not, if anything she became more moody about the stupid things, and I just deal with it. Now she is gone off live with her mom, On some Sabbatical, and it kill me. I know I need to move on, It therapy she said she did not want a divorce or a separation. Should I be the one to push for it. Why is she being such an a-hole to me. I gave her everything, she is the one who shut down. Now I am thinking of calling her on Thanksgiving, and I am not sure if that is a good idea, will it make her angry. she did tell me she 'loved me' but she has not said that in 2 months. though last month she said she missed me. i just feel horrible because I pushed and now i really think it is over separated 4 M, married 8.5 years, dated 4 years,
