Dealing with the reality of separation

[PeteWyo]

God, this is so frustrating. I know that I want to go down fighting but I don't want to cause my W more pain. Even though I know it will be short lived, she will be happy. That is all I've ever wanted for her. I can take the pain, I've been living in perpetual fear for 3 years. I've always considered myself a strong willed person. She is not, and hearing her cry on the phone broke my heart more than her leaving me. I don't want to put her through more pain. I'm so torn.