I suppose you will always have a connection because of the kids. I am the same. I decided awhile ago that I will do my best to keep my R with H clam and amicable because of our kids. What it turns out to be is not in my hands. I can only encourage is his best behavior. He doesn't have to be it.
The other stuff? You keep moving forward. It will, as you know, fall into place. And we both know that this is easier said than done! For me I know I force myself to GAL with or without kids and have to consciously tell myself 'this is for me, this is for me'.
I try to split the NC. What I mean is I am NC with H about us. About me. I am not NC with regards to the kids. He can be the father without any interference from me. How much is his choice. But me? That is NC.
Thinking of you ((((( )))))
TPS Me: 44 H: 42 M14 T17 S10 D7 10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month 21/04/12 H is 'DONE' 04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010) July '14 H ends affair May '15 H moves back home
