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Talked to him via phone last night. He's getting things drawn up in order to finalize the D. Mentioned he was busy with work and have been traveling a lot. He moved a friend into the house (a male - former coworker) and said that they may be making thanksgiving dinner. He asked if I was sick because I sounded a little congested. I told him that I was. He asked about work and I did the same. It was very awkward. He sounds really good and happy. He mentioned that he didn't really call me for business, I said okay but I kept steering the conversation that way. He asked if I could meet him today or Wednesday. I said those days were not good for me, thinking that I didn't want to accommodate his schedule because he canceled on me numerous times. He mentioned that he would be traveling for thanksgiving with his father. I fought back all of the tears and the word that would have come flooding out. I thanked him for the call and wished him goodnight. I really wanted to get off as fast as I could. It worked, but I tell you what, I felt like a bag of poop after. This sadness came over me so heavy and strong. I cried and got angry that he's moving on. I want to move on too. I don't want to be this big bag of emotion. I have no plans for this holiday, I'm forcing myself to go volunteer at the shelter something that I ALWAYS wanted to do for Thanksgiving. I hope that I can get the strength to do so. I started working out, cooking, watching tv and laughing. But that call really crushed all of my progress. I've also got a road trip planned to go to Austin on Friday afternoon - a last minute thing. Something to force myself to let my hair down and GAL... I'm not sure. As I mentioned the call really crushed me.