Dealing with the reality of separation

[PeteWyo]

I will never figure this one out unfortunately. I mean, I stopped trying to understand it. I mean listen, I get some of why she was unhappy, and I agree that there are things that I needed to work on, but no relationship is perfect. I mean I have come to accept it but I just feel like I will never have a clear idea of why this is happening. If we were fighting all the time or I cheated on her or I knocked her around I would get it. But we literally went from holding hand and kissing to, I want a divorce. And aside from her friends telling me some things, she still has not told me what this is all about. So I stopped trying to understand it. I know OM has a lot to do with it. But I don't believe for a second that me waiting around and torturing myself trying to figure out why this is happening is going to change anything. It seems that for whatever reason, she has made this decision. So I guess I am as ready as I will ever be.