Put your hands up; it's a wild ride

[someguy1233]

Yesterday W said she was going out after work with an old friend from highschool that was in town for Thanksgiving. She said she wouldn’t be out too late. Again, she came home late… 11:30 this time.

When she got home it was clear that she had plenty to drink. She wasn’t falling over drunk, but was in that alcohol induced happy place. She got into bed and once she realized I had woke she wanted to tell me all about her night and what bars they went to. She told me about some of the conversations they had. I tried to engage the best I could, but having been asleep for 1.5 hours, I was struggling to be a good conversationalist. She seemed to have had a great time and really wanted to share it with me. At the end of the conversation she said with a chipper tone, “I love you, SomeGuy.” I replied, “Love you too.” She rolled over and went to sleep.

This morning was a series of bad communication. It seemed no matter what I said, she took it the wrong way. I had the best of intentions but everything came across wrong.

I think it was my resentment that caused the poor communication. I woke up bitter, angry, and lonely. I long for the days when there was someone that cared to hear about MY day. She’ll ask, “How’s it going?” or “How was your day?” occasionally. But it seems to just be a formality. She doesn’t actively listen when I respond.

I mentioned in passing, “I have plans tonight at 7:00.”
She responded, “Sounds good. What are you going to do?”
I replied, “Going out.”
She responded with frustration, “oooooohhhh kaaaaay. You drive me nuts.”

I know I’m supposed to create some mystery. But every time I go out or do anything she asks what I have planned or where I’ve been. She gets annoyed if I don’t divulge the details. Do you all think I should be more forthcoming in the details of my plans?