The crack in my separated life...

[Sweetbriar]

So, I have a few questions....

I know, I need to be concentrating on myself..but tomorrow is my 15 year anniversary and of course Thanksgiving on Thursday...having a hard time.

Is the affair like an addiction? My family member said she saw something on TV about it...and Im wondering if my H IS addicted to this OW? Especially since this is not something he was capable of before...

Also, Im in NC contact mode to help myself and break away, but I wont lie that I want him to miss me and his family too. The only thing is, the kids give him insight on what is going on with us...how will be ever miss us when he has them to rely on for information?

Lastly, I do not plan on acknowledging my anniversary tomorrow and know that he will not. This will hurt me deeply, as I assume after dinner with my kids tomorrow he will spend it with OW...our anniversary and he will be with her. This makes me sick. I just want to make sure that NOT saying anything is the right thing to do?

I did have to email his this morning to ask him to remove my bank account number from his paypal account. apparetnly, its still attached and I PAID FOR THE BASKETBALL TICKETS FROM SATRUDAY WHEN HE TOOK MY DAUGHTER!! I only have so much money, so I just kindly asked if he could remove my account and add the fund into the check he gives me at the end of the month. I figure this contact was acceptable.

He did respond, Whoops, I will do that and then proceeded to ask about our Visa account...

I know there are no answers or guarantees...but I just hate this attachement he has to this OW and how he things things are better with her. I just want him to wake up:(