Yes, it is soo tiresome. How long can you listen to some call themselves every ugly name in the book before your sick to your stomach over their word vomit. I know that sounds extrem but I'm being honest with myself.
The refusal of meds is probably most of H's problem, as the C said he would have such clarity, memory, and calmness in his head as, he's too full of energy and can't even settle his mind to sleep.
The trick is to stop worrying about H. Just live your life day by day, focused on you and feel great about yourself. At least that's what I tell myself everyday, sometimes several times a day.
Here's me trying to be strong!
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
