Unfortunately- I think it is normal. My H IS bipolar so I know some of what you are going through. It's ironic that you mention some of the things you did. Like your H mine had the depression, outbursts, anger, aches, then the verbal talking about how awful he is, putting himself down, wanting to die. It is so tiresome.
For my H really the problems were his refusal to seek any sort of treatment at all. I think this is really normal. I too have decided that without real commitment to treatment on his part that I cannot go back to that life. It is too difficult for myself and my children. You have to do what is best for you.
I am also to the point where I am just trying to outlast the crisis. But more than that, I just figure I am working on my own time line. I will know when to walk away completely, when I am done. Otherwise, this will just be another thing he didn't finish or follow through on.
I figure one way or the other we will have some peace at the end of this journey. :-) Keep your chin up!
