Fear, yes I think Fear plays a part in it for me. I fear, that I won't ever love anybody else, in the same way again. I fear the consequences this could have on my children. I fear H wanting to R and it being too late for me. I fear this empty feeling lasting for years, if not forever. I don't fear that I won't be able to find anybody else, I just don't know that I will love like that again.
Sadness definitely plays a part, too. I'm sad about the loss of a lot of my future plans, I'm sad for me and for my children. I'm sad it came to this and I didn't see it coming. I'm sad that my marriage is over and H and I probably will not R.
You will most likely find love again, this time you'll go in with eyes wide open and you'll make the decision if this one is right for YOU, not the other way around.
Sad is right, it's sad for someone to give up and walk out on a marriage. Walk out on children with out much of a fight. There was so much love to be given and received if only the desire to work through the issues was still there. That is sad and most likely they will never get it and transfer their unhappiness onto someone else, as they will most likely not work through their own demons. Keep up the hard work and kill your demons RT.
Hers a big ole Tennessee hug coming for ya ((((RT))))
You can not change your past, but you can ruin a perfectly good present by worrying about the future.
