Her trying was not yesterday, but the Sun before taking me to a family get together and then yesterday even though we were fighting that she was going to spend time with me.
We got into a fight in the car as we were going to the store yesterday. I turned around and told her she could go alone. Then I pulled over and we both calmed down some. We went to the store and had a good time and then had a really nice lunch.
After that she had already planned to go see the new Twighlight movie with her sister-in-law (part of what sparked the fighting in the car) and that's when my friend told me that she didn't want to make a committment for fear of me kicking her out.
So I called GF and brought this up. We get into it again and she's starting with "we were having a good time" but I told her it seems like it's always what her defintion of "good time" is. She told me that the guy who was yelling at her in the car is not somebody she wants to be with. The guy in the store and at lunch is the somebody she wants to be with. If I can be consistent (yes yes yes, as you guys have told me time and again) then she'll be able to commit. I told her that I need direction, that her ambiguity is causing my erratic behavior.
Right or wrong it's a fact. With me getting a little physical intimacy I'm going to be calmer with her and be the guy she's looking for.
Also, today her phone bill was due. I didn't have to pay it and she had no expectation of me paying it. When I told her I was going to she said she hates asking me for money. I told her that this is the difference between us being together or not and went and took my shower.
“People are just as happy as they make up their minds to be.” Abraham Lincoln
