PMs are discontinued on this site (at least that's what they say), you have to go alt.

Tumbling, you didn't push him away. He just can't express his needs. I recognize the pattern.

"I don't know why I can't close the door and move on." You aren't done yet. It's a process that takes time. You're still in denial, and that's OK.

Give it time, you'll get there.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss