Bug- No I would most definitely do things differently now.
Today has been a pretty crappy day. Cried in the car. Just can't seem to get it together. I always have a hard time the beginning of the week. Not sure why. I'm just so down and feel alone. Not alone in a good way. I guess lonely more than alone. I also miss my H.
I went to that orientation today. 120 or so men in a room. Sadly, I didn't even think any were attractive. I couldn't even begin to imagine myself with someone else. Every time I even try I start crying. I can picture myself alone much easier than with someone else.
I guess maybe this is my cycle. Not sure what to do to make it any smoother though.
In looking at HALT though I have 3 out of 4 today so perhaps that is a clue. Hungry lonely and tired. I have sort of wondered where Anger was lately. Hasn't made an appearance in a bit.
I guess my next post I will start a new thread. Girls have BB tonight. That usually helps take my mind off things. Also, it's just nice to get to hang out and hear giggling and laughter.
Also, I am getting to where I hate looking at couples. Sigh. This is my life and I need to adjust to it but it's so hard.
