Dealing with the reality of separation

[PeteWyo]

She asked me how I was, I said great! She said that she didn't plan on going back to the counselor anymore. I didn't say anything. She thanked me for getting her things to her and then said, "I think it's time to start taking this to the next step." She said it so matter of fact. I mean I'm sure that her and OM have talked about it and she had to build up the courage to say that. I did end up telling her about my job change and she seemed surprised at that. This just confirms to me that she has no idea about ANY of the 180s that I have been doing. I know that the 180s are for me, it would have just been nice for her to notice them too. In the end, I doubted that there was any saving my M, even if she wanted to come back, the more I think about everything I really have no idea who she is. The person that she was in front of me was apparently a big facade, at least from what I hear from everyone else. So how could I make a decision on whether or not to take her back when I don't even know who she was to begin with?!