Hey, no problem! I remember how hard all of this was. The friends I made here are my friends today. Some I don't hear from much but others I have regular contact with.
I hope we can get you to a great place in your life. If your H decides to join in...well he has plenty of work to do. You are a wonderful person and it sounds as if the people you run into day to day are getting to see that.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory