Put your hands up; it's a wild ride

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As we drove to W’s volunteer group Thanksgiving dinner she continued to be CRABBY. I sang with the radio. I continued to be happy and not let her mood control me. She finally stopped being crabby shortly before we arrived to the event. It was a good time with lots of great food.

We left the dinner a little early and since we had a babysitter I asked if W wanted to stop and grab a drink. We went to an old bar we used to hang out at years ago. I was having fun, and then W wanted to talk AGAIN! She seems to bring up these conversations frequently.

*She said I’m a great guy. She has fun times when she’s around me.
*She says she can’t move beyond sometimes snuggling. She can’t get herself to have sex. She said the lack of sex must be hard for me. She said it was hard for her.
*She said she’s terrified of making any decisions. She can’t decide if she should stay home with S instead of working full-time. She can’t decide what to do about our R. She’s terrified she could make a wrong decision. She said that back when she was talking about separation and moving out she was VERY serious. But now she just can’t decide.
*She said she’s always felt depression on and off throughout her life.
*She did comment that she was thinking about seeing IC.
*She seemed to be very concerned about me… she said it must be really hard for me not knowing what's going on with my relationship and that I'm just waiting for the other shoe to drop… Also not knowing how my relationship is going to be day to day.
*She asked if I thought about how things would be/work if we split. I told her I hadn't thought about it and that I've been focused on working on myself. (had this same exchange before!) This time she replied with, “ok well off the cuff. How would it work?” I said I really wasn’t sure. She let it slide.
*She complimented me on my new coat and sweater.
*As we were heading home she scratched my arm and said, “thanks I had fun tonight.”

This morning she wore her ring to work for the first time since BD. (Also note, possible OM no longer works in her office)

This morning I noticed that she changed her FB cover photo. Shortly after BD she changed all her pictures to photos without me. She changed it to a family picture of me, her, and S.